Wednesday, December 29, 2010
i went out wif mom today...
out to bank then tamp...
then suddenly we talk bout rings coz
mom keep on blabbering bout it
soo i thought bout couple ring
and theres this one ring lyke omg its my ideal ring
its awesomely effing nice
its killing me thinking bout it!!
i swear its nice!!!
haizzz...but just forget it!!
but i want that ring!!!!!!!
I cannot forget bout it!!!
maybe ill be blabbering to boyfy!
kay should stop now!!!
SAYONARA~
out to bank then tamp...
then suddenly we talk bout rings coz
mom keep on blabbering bout it
soo i thought bout couple ring
and theres this one ring lyke omg its my ideal ring
its awesomely effing nice
its killing me thinking bout it!!
i swear its nice!!!
haizzz...but just forget it!!
but i want that ring!!!!!!!
I cannot forget bout it!!!
maybe ill be blabbering to boyfy!
kay should stop now!!!
SAYONARA~
Saturday, December 25, 2010
HOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!its 25th people....and tmr is 26 =D
will he remember?? hahahahahahha
fake laa he wont ryte...haha
im dead bored now.....
well..ive been thinking since my dad cant afford to gyve everything i want
y not he just grant me my freedom
then i wouldnt ask for anything more..
ill find my own money well kind of find it
den have fun...isnt it great
my lyfe would at least brighten up abit
but nah he still controlling me...ive no lyfe huh...haha
dead bored.......
SAYONARA
Thursday, December 23, 2010
well my december getting from bad to worst...
first the attitude but im get used to it
but recently i heard unwanted news that either a lie or truth
i don know on which side to believe...
they both can be right and also wrong at the same tyme
the story line were all different..
and im just to afraid to make a move and ask people around..
coz im afraid that it'll get even worse
and now im making fuss wif boify and will atrat my attitude towards hym
it was lyke im suppose to believe hym other then the other party
but i donnoe y im trusting the other party instead..
my mind in a mess...everything messed up
why must it happening now?? fuck it!
FML!!! i hate it...lyke i said
everytyme im about to feel happiness surround me something bad will bring me down..
fuck it all up la sial!!!nbcb...had enough of this...
maybe i should just stop trusting people n move on wif my lyfe alone...
not as if break up or wad.. but everything i just kept to myself
it'll be much better that way..
no one will get hurt by me...
i don wish to hurt hym over and over again...
i've done enough to hurt hym...
i can ony hope for hys happiness....
SAYONARA
first the attitude but im get used to it
but recently i heard unwanted news that either a lie or truth
i don know on which side to believe...
they both can be right and also wrong at the same tyme
the story line were all different..
and im just to afraid to make a move and ask people around..
coz im afraid that it'll get even worse
and now im making fuss wif boify and will atrat my attitude towards hym
it was lyke im suppose to believe hym other then the other party
but i donnoe y im trusting the other party instead..
my mind in a mess...everything messed up
why must it happening now?? fuck it!
FML!!! i hate it...lyke i said
everytyme im about to feel happiness surround me something bad will bring me down..
fuck it all up la sial!!!nbcb...had enough of this...
maybe i should just stop trusting people n move on wif my lyfe alone...
not as if break up or wad.. but everything i just kept to myself
it'll be much better that way..
no one will get hurt by me...
i don wish to hurt hym over and over again...
i've done enough to hurt hym...
i can ony hope for hys happiness....
SAYONARA
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
starting of this month is a hard tyme for me
people's reactions remind me of my past and its frighten me...haizz...
but im here standing tall trying so hard not to fall back.
so yesterday met baby at his work place due to reasons...
along with his frens playing water at the beach
bury hym under the sand..haha much fun..but sadly i can enjoy the water...
later the whole sea red..haha
then bussed to yishun meet up with hys mom for q
while then trained home alone
then today hmm silent again..
maybe his sleeping...nemind..haha
soo going out soon...yet im hungry now..
waiting for Arnolds fried chicken to come..yummmmy
SAYONARA~
people's reactions remind me of my past and its frighten me...haizz...
but im here standing tall trying so hard not to fall back.
so yesterday met baby at his work place due to reasons...
along with his frens playing water at the beach
bury hym under the sand..haha much fun..but sadly i can enjoy the water...
later the whole sea red..haha
then bussed to yishun meet up with hys mom for q
while then trained home alone
then today hmm silent again..
maybe his sleeping...nemind..haha
soo going out soon...yet im hungry now..
waiting for Arnolds fried chicken to come..yummmmy
SAYONARA~
Monday, December 13, 2010
well i woke up today with my mind remembering of wad happen to hym
great ryte...since then my mood gone worst
wad more that he gonna do that gonna hurt hys surroundings?
maybe i should do wad i said on my past post
let u settle everything then we contact back..
since i already know this things gonna happen again
might as well i start doing my own things too..
i do need fun too..
soo its lyke u have it ur way and im having it my way
but i didnt do it
why? becoz im think bout u.im thinking bout ur feelings.and also i love you..
but do u care? no u dont
u just fuck care everything n have it ur way..awesome isnt it..
expected u wont change baby u just won n u don want to..
u can but u don want
all ur bullshytz...up to you now..
ur fucking werds i aint trusting anymore
i gyve up!
YES I GAVE UP!
TOLD U MANY TYMES ALREADY..
UP TO U NOW!
HAPPY LA KAU NGA MEMBER KAU..
AKU PON NAK HAPPY NGAN MEMNER AKU
LAGY PN AKU DA BIASE IDOP SRG..SOO NI SUME NO HAL PADE AKU...
IM USED TO EVERYSHYTZ THATS HAPPENING TO ME!
and even if u loss me u wouldnt mind at all
coz u can get any prettier girl then me..
im just NOBODY to you..
THATS FOR SURE
SAYONARA
great ryte...since then my mood gone worst
wad more that he gonna do that gonna hurt hys surroundings?
maybe i should do wad i said on my past post
let u settle everything then we contact back..
since i already know this things gonna happen again
might as well i start doing my own things too..
i do need fun too..
soo its lyke u have it ur way and im having it my way
but i didnt do it
why? becoz im think bout u.im thinking bout ur feelings.and also i love you..
but do u care? no u dont
u just fuck care everything n have it ur way..awesome isnt it..
expected u wont change baby u just won n u don want to..
u can but u don want
all ur bullshytz...up to you now..
ur fucking werds i aint trusting anymore
i gyve up!
YES I GAVE UP!
TOLD U MANY TYMES ALREADY..
UP TO U NOW!
HAPPY LA KAU NGA MEMBER KAU..
AKU PON NAK HAPPY NGAN MEMNER AKU
LAGY PN AKU DA BIASE IDOP SRG..SOO NI SUME NO HAL PADE AKU...
IM USED TO EVERYSHYTZ THATS HAPPENING TO ME!
and even if u loss me u wouldnt mind at all
coz u can get any prettier girl then me..
im just NOBODY to you..
THATS FOR SURE
SAYONARA
Sunday, December 12, 2010
boyfren
until when sia u wanna be lyke thiz
it may b fun 4 u bt not for me
im holding to ur werds n waited
i knew its not months or years
but for me hours seem lyke days or weeks
come on..u free now n im hoping for u to change
the past 6 months u can endure but why not u just continue doing it?
why?don't u care bout me??nah i don think so
even if im quiet u think im happy with it??
coz i don wanna be too control of you thats why i let u have your way
n this is wad i get??i called ur phone n ur fren said that u were away
interesting isnt it..wad else u wanna do?
n now u want away again for the next 2 years??
think laa come on...
aku da ckp per...jgn ikot rese..nk sgt kan...
suke kn aku merane...suke kn aku sedih..
kau hang out ngan bro aku tk pasal
asalkan kau pandai jage diri
abeh ni ar after i gaveu ur freedom...
thx ar...aku BANGGE Ar ngan kau..
have fun ar take care..kau nk buat ape skg suke hati kau..
and aku pun..ape aku nk uat suke haty aku..kau tkmo halang aku okay!
kay FAIR AND SQUARE KN
SAYONARA
until when sia u wanna be lyke thiz
it may b fun 4 u bt not for me
im holding to ur werds n waited
i knew its not months or years
but for me hours seem lyke days or weeks
come on..u free now n im hoping for u to change
the past 6 months u can endure but why not u just continue doing it?
why?don't u care bout me??nah i don think so
even if im quiet u think im happy with it??
coz i don wanna be too control of you thats why i let u have your way
n this is wad i get??i called ur phone n ur fren said that u were away
interesting isnt it..wad else u wanna do?
n now u want away again for the next 2 years??
think laa come on...
aku da ckp per...jgn ikot rese..nk sgt kan...
suke kn aku merane...suke kn aku sedih..
kau hang out ngan bro aku tk pasal
asalkan kau pandai jage diri
abeh ni ar after i gaveu ur freedom...
thx ar...aku BANGGE Ar ngan kau..
have fun ar take care..kau nk buat ape skg suke hati kau..
and aku pun..ape aku nk uat suke haty aku..kau tkmo halang aku okay!
kay FAIR AND SQUARE KN
SAYONARA
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
HEYYYYYYYYYLLLOOOOO BLOOOOGGY!!!!
ME MENDAK!
aru update lagy satu pey blog
soo tk tau nk update ape pt syny..
plus ive met hym just now..
next meet up donnoe wen..
im waiting for letter from MOE saying that ill begetting my result wen
i not ready to look for result but im well prepared for the worst i guess..hahah
kay i shall stop nonsening here
SAYONARA
ME MENDAK!
aru update lagy satu pey blog
soo tk tau nk update ape pt syny..
plus ive met hym just now..
next meet up donnoe wen..
im waiting for letter from MOE saying that ill begetting my result wen
i not ready to look for result but im well prepared for the worst i guess..hahah
kay i shall stop nonsening here
SAYONARA
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
PRANGAI LELAKI SUME SAME!
sape2 terase sorry..
aku gyve up..
ingat kn ade org leh buktikn aku salah
tapi lame2 drg tetap same jugak...
mcm soyal...
AKU GYVE UP!!!!!
sape2 terase sorry..
aku gyve up..
ingat kn ade org leh buktikn aku salah
tapi lame2 drg tetap same jugak...
mcm soyal...
AKU GYVE UP!!!!!
Monday, December 6, 2010
hihihihihihihihi
im so IMPRESSED that for the past few days you can changed
u don seem to care bout me anymore..marvelous
im soooo fucking happy bout it
I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE BULLSHYTZZ NOW!
STOP STMF WITH ME AITE..
AINT TRUSTING BULLSHYTS FROM U NYMORE
TIRED OF IT...
JADY LA MCM BISCUIT SLALU KAY...
im so IMPRESSED that for the past few days you can changed
u don seem to care bout me anymore..marvelous
im soooo fucking happy bout it
I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE BULLSHYTZZ NOW!
STOP STMF WITH ME AITE..
AINT TRUSTING BULLSHYTS FROM U NYMORE
TIRED OF IT...
JADY LA MCM BISCUIT SLALU KAY...
SAYONARA
Sunday, December 5, 2010
im sick once agaen...
aww pity me ok..haha
hmm...i should get my butt of the house before my fever going on off
haizz....babies where are u..??? i need u guys leh..
my phone becoming soo silent and i don lyke it..
can i make frenz wif people?? im dying of boredom here..
my num..ask me personally..haha..
im planning on going somewhere wif galfies but they were all bz..haizz..
don bother asking me about HYM=MIA..
ehhehehehe...soo tmr Monday..
rotting at home again i guess..
on fon or off or divert to house fon??
hmm.. i guess off and people contact me thru fb aite...
HELL who need guys to cheer me up..im standing on my own...
ive been in that situation and i can do it again...haha
bobal mcm phm sia safiah..haha
ala drg ade tau tkde tetap idop per?? tk mati per?
btl tk? asalkn tk de planning nk bunuh diri sdh la...
but thinking back,suicide may be a good way of saying goodbye..hahaha
agree? yes? no? kay fyne u decide
i nk patah balik no feeling girl boleh??
hhaa..bobal sume main hembus jek tk pk psl org?
tapi i tk cruel..tk pe la...i nk MIA jugak la..hehe
mcm fun gytu eh MIA MIA..hehe..
SAYONARA
aww pity me ok..haha
hmm...i should get my butt of the house before my fever going on off
haizz....babies where are u..??? i need u guys leh..
my phone becoming soo silent and i don lyke it..
can i make frenz wif people?? im dying of boredom here..
my num..ask me personally..haha..
im planning on going somewhere wif galfies but they were all bz..haizz..
don bother asking me about HYM=MIA..
ehhehehehe...soo tmr Monday..
rotting at home again i guess..
on fon or off or divert to house fon??
hmm.. i guess off and people contact me thru fb aite...
HELL who need guys to cheer me up..im standing on my own...
ive been in that situation and i can do it again...haha
bobal mcm phm sia safiah..haha
ala drg ade tau tkde tetap idop per?? tk mati per?
btl tk? asalkn tk de planning nk bunuh diri sdh la...
but thinking back,suicide may be a good way of saying goodbye..hahaha
agree? yes? no? kay fyne u decide
i nk patah balik no feeling girl boleh??
hhaa..bobal sume main hembus jek tk pk psl org?
tapi i tk cruel..tk pe la...i nk MIA jugak la..hehe
mcm fun gytu eh MIA MIA..hehe..
SAYONARA
Saturday, December 4, 2010
my fever gone but i still having sore throat..
hmm...peole celebrating their birthdays..
i find it fun celebrating with love ones..
but in three more months..wee
haha..well i don think im celebrating
haha..hope ppl would forget my birthday..hehe
soo basically birthdays will have
cake presents party games and killing the birthday kid..
the reason i hate celebrating becoz im afraid of kena bash..haha
even girls kena but their gfs..haizz...
haha not gonna think bout birthdays...
soo gonna watch bleach now...
SAYONARA
hmm...peole celebrating their birthdays..
i find it fun celebrating with love ones..
but in three more months..wee
haha..well i don think im celebrating
haha..hope ppl would forget my birthday..hehe
soo basically birthdays will have
cake presents party games and killing the birthday kid..
the reason i hate celebrating becoz im afraid of kena bash..haha
even girls kena but their gfs..haizz...
haha not gonna think bout birthdays...
soo gonna watch bleach now...
SAYONARA
Friday, December 3, 2010
i was hoping i could see hym today
coz i wanna spent my tyme at least an hour
soo i can see hys happy face in front of me
but no..we didnt meet n i continuously spent tyme wif nana
come on saf get the fact he dont need you anymore
just face it...u can survive ryte..u used to be lyke this
plz gyve me tyme to be alone...
im happy to at least have been spending tyme wif u
for at least the past few months and ignore my frens
coz i tot u will do the same wen ur free
but i was wrong and totally wrong
so dont scold me if my frens are now 1st in my lyfe
im sorry and hope u understand
if u feel bad and its already too late syg...
if u sorry ive forgave you
but as u know sorry wont cure anything ryte...
and it also wont bring back tyme
if ur reading this then give me tyme..
don call or msg me..i had enough for the pass 3 days n nights
SAYONARA
coz i wanna spent my tyme at least an hour
soo i can see hys happy face in front of me
but no..we didnt meet n i continuously spent tyme wif nana
"i tot im hys num one
i tot im always hys first in his lyfe
i tot he knew all my feeling without even im showing
i tot he wont believe my lies
and i tot he could willing to do anything for me
but i was wrong
im not hys num one
im not the 1st in hys lyfe
he didnt even care
he believes everything
and its because i do things that break others heart just to spent freaking tyme with hym"
i tot im always hys first in his lyfe
i tot he knew all my feeling without even im showing
i tot he wont believe my lies
and i tot he could willing to do anything for me
but i was wrong
im not hys num one
im not the 1st in hys lyfe
he didnt even care
he believes everything
and its because i do things that break others heart just to spent freaking tyme with hym"
come on saf get the fact he dont need you anymore
just face it...u can survive ryte..u used to be lyke this
plz gyve me tyme to be alone...
im happy to at least have been spending tyme wif u
for at least the past few months and ignore my frens
coz i tot u will do the same wen ur free
but i was wrong and totally wrong
so dont scold me if my frens are now 1st in my lyfe
im sorry and hope u understand
if u feel bad and its already too late syg...
if u sorry ive forgave you
but as u know sorry wont cure anything ryte...
and it also wont bring back tyme
if ur reading this then give me tyme..
don call or msg me..i had enough for the pass 3 days n nights
SAYONARA
Labels: stop saying just to make feel better
the watch had been taken out
im glad..n im soo happy for hym
and it seems that ive been preparing for the worst
i should be ready but yet im not..
i should just take a step back now...seriously now..
plz safiah ur strong i know u can fucking do it..
show ur smile...i think im going MIA from him now..
hope he will have so much fun with them..
i think ive become a good liar though
and im happy bout that..
i don wanna think anymore...just fuck it all...
wad ever happen i don wanna noe..
im going back to the lonely safiah
nemind i can survive...and i will i hope
enough of all the tears i cried for the past two nights and days..
but sadly i just cant..don worry bout me ill be just fyne
SAYONARA
im glad..n im soo happy for hym
and it seems that ive been preparing for the worst
i should be ready but yet im not..
i should just take a step back now...seriously now..
plz safiah ur strong i know u can fucking do it..
show ur smile...i think im going MIA from him now..
hope he will have so much fun with them..
i think ive become a good liar though
and im happy bout that..
i don wanna think anymore...just fuck it all...
wad ever happen i don wanna noe..
im going back to the lonely safiah
nemind i can survive...and i will i hope
enough of all the tears i cried for the past two nights and days..
but sadly i just cant..don worry bout me ill be just fyne
SAYONARA
Thursday, December 2, 2010
tmr's the day where he will be a totally free man
im proud that for the passed 6th month he endure everything
and now im here worrying and also preparing for the worst
worry becoz he might go bck to his past
and preparing for the future which i don wish to happen
the thoughts of negative and positive are fighting one another
and it seems that negative thoughts are wining
i just hope he wont change for the worst
lately he's been bz with stuff
i understand but usually he will forcing hymself talking to me even he was tired
but the past few days was...idk...im speechless
i was planning to let hym settle everything he was facing and then we will be contacting back
i did tell hym yesterday with unwillingness heart and watery eyes
and i understood that he needs me..but i cant take it with his MIA
since his gonna be free...he can do anything that he want..
ill be here and listen all the fun things... =')
if that makes hym happy then im happy for hym
SAYONARA
im proud that for the passed 6th month he endure everything
and now im here worrying and also preparing for the worst
worry becoz he might go bck to his past
and preparing for the future which i don wish to happen
the thoughts of negative and positive are fighting one another
and it seems that negative thoughts are wining
i just hope he wont change for the worst
lately he's been bz with stuff
i understand but usually he will forcing hymself talking to me even he was tired
but the past few days was...idk...im speechless
i was planning to let hym settle everything he was facing and then we will be contacting back
i did tell hym yesterday with unwillingness heart and watery eyes
and i understood that he needs me..but i cant take it with his MIA
since his gonna be free...he can do anything that he want..
ill be here and listen all the fun things... =')
if that makes hym happy then im happy for hym
SAYONARA
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
HEEEEELLLLLOOOOO DEEECCCEEEMMMBBEEERRR!!!!
WELL my december greeted me wif a high fever
cool ryte! i know!
wanna rest but i just cant..waited for hys calls..
till now not called yet...his bz i know n he's gonna be alright
soo my temp was not that high 38.6..not that ryte..
ermm soo..i guess im out of werds here...
sayonara
WELL my december greeted me wif a high fever
cool ryte! i know!
wanna rest but i just cant..waited for hys calls..
till now not called yet...his bz i know n he's gonna be alright
soo my temp was not that high 38.6..not that ryte..
ermm soo..i guess im out of werds here...
sayonara
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Safiah Babyyasha
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