Wednesday, December 25, 2013

I just gotta blog this.. Although we broke up n things gone haywire between us, he will never fail to make me smile, laugh or anything happy.  Although he knew I fell inlove w someone else n get attach to them, he will be supporting me frm the bck. And whenever I am feeling low, he will magically appear out of nowhere to brighten up my days again. We could talk bout alomst everything without getting bored. From one topic to another.. k lol seriously... we nvr failed to catch things up between us. It will eventually happen one day in every month... hes like a best friend to me already although theres still emotion connections between us but we do respect each other if we were to be in rs.

I knw seeing me cry hurts him alot than our love story. Wiping away my tears n making me laugh when im still crying n then asking me the question "do you want to cry or laugh?" While im still tearing n laugh at the same time. He knew me to well. I dont have to say anything n he already knw everything. Thats makes it more easier to talk things. He is the only obe ex that knew me very fcking well in short period of time. No matter how hurt the truth might be but we could tell each other straight to our faces n still laugh in the end. Sighh.... hes going in soon fr 4 months. No one gonna be there when im down... even if I were to patch thing up w den, haish I guess no one gonna support me from behind... All he wanted fr me to be happy. Thats a good thing bout him although hes hurt inside... he willing to put that all aside just to make me happy.., hes the best excy I ever had... thankyou fr everything...

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Its our third month. And there you go sleeping. I understand that youre tired but haish. Sometimes i just dont knw who am i to you. Am i really important in your life? Do you really love me? Why do i suddenly feel insecure? I guess im just another toy for guys huh. Im sick n tired. Sick n tired of being treated as if im nothing.. All i cn do is just lying here crying all by my self on our third. Do you even care? No you only think of yourself... i knw where i stand.. im just no body to you.. i get it.. you dont really need me. Not at all by right.. you habe someone i have no one... thanks bhy, you different yes i admit that but somehow you have to understand what a girl like me actually need. please. You cant always blame why us girls left when the attention isnt there. After you fought so hard to win their heart and after u get them u left then unattended. We arent toy we have feelings too... its no use telling ypu anyway, you wont understand my feelings anyway... shattered, broken,

~ Safiah ~ @ 2:10:00 AM

Friday, November 8, 2013

Well it almost 3 month being with you... In this 3 months we've been through alot. I admit you are different from the rest but sometimes i need more attention from you.. idk why is it hard fr me to let out what i feel now . Maybe im afraid that i might hurt you.. But sighh you wouldnt understand anyway... By right you dk me that well eitber bby.. yes im sensitive, i am very sensitive but same goes to you.. i cant even know wbats in your mind. Sighhh.... we've been like arguing recently... im tired.. i knw you is tired too... but haishh idk, you were like keeping things from me... bt sighh sometimes i just need you to listen n stop debating w me... althought im in the wrong bt just understand me will you... sometime i felt that i dont even exist in ur life. You woke up n straight away play games. Sighh.... i just felt unwanted at times... am i even important to you?

~ Safiah ~ @ 1:39:00 AM

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Remember that night, when we were out slacking at macD and i wanted to buy something at 7-11. You piggyback me frm and fro. You care less about your frens seeing you carrying me as you know it will make me happy, smile, laugh and obviously blushing all the way.. Even i force you to put me down you ignore and continue carrying me.. No one ever does that to me. You dont care what people say and you werent ashamed of it not even a bit. I miss the fun with you D. I still love you as before even more then you ever imagine. I missing every single little thing bout us. You're fucking meant alot to me, why cant you put aside your ego and accept me back. i miss us. we're going to out 4th i know it still early but it meant a whole lot to me.. Accept me back maybe? I may not show that i care but im absolutely worried bout you. Sighhh, imissyouD

~ Safiah ~ @ 1:33:00 AM

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Macam biase since secondary life, tgk wayang mesti tige org.. and as usual im the only girl... last time with naufal now with ramadan. but the two stay the same, me and mark.. LOL ness...

kay moving on, changkatans reunions. not fully but the three of us.. fyqo bz working, oh wells. Sighh tgl die je aku lom mintak maaf... sighhh... hard life la kans...

~ Safiah ~ @ 11:55:00 PM

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Its a fullmoon tonight, to many memories.. the reason why i wont hate it is because, memories bring back those time that i missed the most. It may make me cry but hey it doesnt change a thing even when the person  itself have changed.

I miss being pampered by my love ones, those forehead kisses, and the love they showered me with, those are the days where ive been craving for. Ever since ive been hurt frm my previous thats when i forget how to love, lost my smile, laugh and those happy feelings...

I miss that feeling too bt what can i do, ive been lonely ever since people keep on coming and leaving my life. I cant stop them, its their choice, sometimes i felt like im being used. I wish i was heartless, no feelings n emotions soo this shytz wont bring me down...  but sadly im the type that cannot see my love ones being hurt.. No one understands me anyway. Soo yeah,i need to mive on either way..

~ Safiah ~ @ 8:05:00 PM

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Thankyou for entering my life and leave me hanging. i've trusted you guys way too much and ended up i get lied and cheated on... For the middle one, is a diff story, after i was left alone for months F came drop by and left me hanging.. After i've move  on from F, D came and changes everything and again shyts happen. soo Whats the point in believing and moving on if i keep on getting heartbreaks over and over again to those i've started to trust and love. Tsk.. Thanks for showing me that r/s just sucks big time. Well F now is happy and Alhamdulillah Im proud that you've change, As for D i wish you the best in life, like i said please find someone that can tolerate with you and love you which i cant be to get to your standard. And Y, four more months and you're out. Please change to be a better man, your bestie is always there for you. She feel sad bout not having  to be there for you after what you going through right now. Dont you worry bout me, i'll find ways to keep me going forward. Sighhh.... Its life, i have to redha...

~ Safiah ~ @ 1:54:00 AM